Well hi. It's been about a year and a half. I'm not sure what happened except a whole hell of a lot. For starters I think I had a midlife crisis about turning 40 that lasted about a year. After getting eyelash extensions and a whole new wardrobe I realized that was all meaningless. Turns out a lot of things are meaningless but that's not entirely my point. My intern Marguerite recently advised me to read Ecclesiastes which I found very amusing as I'm about as likely to open a bible as I am to go swimming with a school of starving sharks. But whatever, I found my bible and flipped to chapter three. Here is a portion:
"There is a time for everything, and a season for everything under the sun. A time to be born and time to die, a time to plant and and time to reap, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a tine to keep and a time to throw away, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear down and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and time for peace."
Perhaps a simple bit of wisdom but alas a mentality that had eluded me until the moment I read it and the events of the past year came flooding back to me like the tears that streamed down my cheeks. I found myself grateful for my tumultuous 40th year. It was a time of struggle which I fought it tooth and nail to escape. But much like the seasons, these times come and go without our permission. We can choose to find the unique beauty each season shows us or we can sit inside and wait for it to end.
So I've set out on a new journey. One of acceptance and experience rather than avoidance. So far it's been pretty cool. I'm reminded of these wise words from a favorite 70's jam by Blues Image:
"Ride captain ride upon your mystery ship, be amazed at the friends you have here on your trip. Ride captain ride upon your mystery ship on your way to a world that others might have missed."
Don't miss it.
Photography: Megan Sadler
Event Planning/Design: Jessica Sloane